Every year comes with its own theme. It differs for everyone.
For me, this year’s theme was: stepping outside your comfort zone.
Magic happens outside your comfort zone.
If someone told me two years ago that I would be doing a solo trip to Europe, I’d have told them to fuck off and attempted to find someone to come with.
Alas, that wasn’t the case. I mentioned in one of my earlier posts that a friend had pulled out due to personal reasons, and I was faced with the fact that I would have to go on my own.
The idea of travelling solo seemed rather foreign to me. But I loved a challenge, and this was something I was willing to tackle with an open mind.
Now that I look back on it – and I can honestly say that I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. I would much rather go solo than go with someone. I can always meet people in new cities – perks of being a part of the Deaf community, which is rather small when you think about it!
Earlier this year, I was faced with two offers for postgraduate study – to continue at University of Western Sydney, or go to Macquarie University. MQ offered a better option, and a Masters was that so I decided to take up on their offer. I was there for a semester, however I discovered that policy wasn’t for me so I have since decided to drop out of Master of Policy and Applied Social Research.
I’m glad I did a semester at MQ, and I would go back if I could. I could do a Master of Applied Anthropology, but I’m not sure if I want to study here in Sydney or make the big move to Melbourne sometime next year. I’m told that La Trobe has a great anthropology department – so I’ll have to look more into it.
Enrolling at MQ pushed me to step outside of my comfort zone, as I was already too comfortable at UWS (mind you, it’s a fantastic university) but it didn’t offer any postgraduate courses in Humanities which is rather disappointing as they had a great Bachelor of Arts program.
And most recently, I resigned from my position at Coles. I had been a team member there for the last 3 years, and my gut instincts was telling me that it was high time for a change. There’s also a small number of reasons following my resignation, although I won’t disclose it here.
My first weekend as an unemployed female was quite nice, although I kept on waking up at 5AM. I went up to the Central Coast to visit friends, and their dog woke me up at 5am. I wasn’t impressed, as it was the first Saturday I could sleep in!
Dog jumps onto my bed.
Me: Dog, fuck off.
Dog stubbornly stays on the bed.
Me: Guess I’ll have to share it with you then.
Dog licks my hand.
Me: STOP IT DOG! I’m trying to sleep here.
Dog makes itself comfortable.
Me: Sigh. I’m going back to sleep.
An hour later, the dog starts to move.
Me: Can you kindly please fuck off?
Dog stares at me.
Me: Out. Please. I beg you. Out!
Dog jumps off the bed and walks out of the room.
Me: Thank God. *goes back to sleep*
You see, I’m not used to sharing a bed with anyone – be it humans or animals. I guess that’s something I’ll have to do in order to step outside yet another comfort zone – sharing a bed.
And now…foraying onto dating sites. Holy cowbunga, a new world out there. Definitely stepping outside another comfort zone. I’m only approximately two weeks into it, and I haven’t met anyone I thought was worthy meeting in person. This dating scene is all new to me – I haven’t gone on a date in…what…8 years? Fuck me, that’s like a whole century in terms of dating. Cue a lot of awkward moments and whatnot. All in all, I’d like to go on at least ONE date in 2014. One date would do, if not multiple dates. I’m not too fussed – just need to put my foot in the door or something like that.
I’m going off track. I need to get back on track and talk about the year that was.
2013. It’s definitely been a good year. I’ve met so many new people – especially those who have changed my life for the better. I came out on a public scale, and embraced my sexuality. I’ve learnt to put my foot forward and push myself ahead into the world out there. I’ve learnt so much new things – and I’m constantly learning – it doesn’t ever stop. I’ve learnt who my true friends are – and it’s neverending as you know how people come and go but only a few will stay in your life.
I finally know who I am. I know what I want out of my life. And that’s just amazing. It took me 8 years to get this far. 8 years ago, I was completely lost and in a rut.
I’m a different person than I was 8 years ago. I’m much more confident. I’m stronger. I’m more positive.
I look forward to discovering what 2014 has in store for me, and I also look forward to continue sharing my life journey with my family and friends.
Thank you for being my friend in 2013.
See y’all in the New Year!
(There’ll be more posts before then!)